I don't know what is real anymore. Are friendships between men and women real? Lasting? What makes a friendship last forever? Are they supposed to last forever?
How do I know the other person feels the same way? Should I care?
My T says relationships have a beginning, a middle, and an end. Well, I guess that is it then. They all end.
Why care about someone if it is going to end? I care deeply when I do care. Maybe too deeply. I give everything I have. I'm usually left all alone in the end...they have their wives, their lives, and can take or leave me.
I keep on giving though and trying despite the hurt. I keep hoping one day, I'll have that friendship and he won't leave.
Or will he?
Hugo Munsterberg
6 days ago
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I feel as though you have taken some of my thoughts and feelings regarding relationships and posted them here.
I don't know if men and women can be friends. According to Harry (from the movie When Harry Met Sally) they cannot be. I am now starting to see what that is the case. And I don't believe friendships can last forever. I recently had a relationship with a man, and it is now over. I had put my all into that one, and I gave and trusted like there was no tomorrow. In the end I was burned. And left alone. Still trying to figure out how to not become jaded, but I am afraid that I have. Something inside of me broke, and now I do not trust anyone. No matter what they say or do, I can always see a possible ulterior motive or some other less than honorable reason they are engaging in conversation with me. It's how the world is anymore, most of the time.
Yet despite my jaded heart and cynical attitude, I still have a spark of hope that someday, someone will come along and prove all of this wrong; someone will show me there can be trust, the kind that never leaves or lets you down.
I hope.
Ann you and I often do think along the same lines!
Trust isn't in my vocabulary. As soon as I put it into someone, they let me down.
I too tend to give too much of myself. In friendships and relationships. I think I give to overcompensate for their lack of giving to me. Its a vicious cycle. We need relationships but we know we won't get the proper satisfaction out of them. Life. Wow.
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