Laughing fit...

Today was so crazy all I could do was laugh. I go through periods of what I call laughing fits. I get so overwhelmed and either contemplate suicide or go into these laughing spells. I can't stop and I must look silly.

I had three bad meetings today and one of them made me miss my session with T. This manager was yelling at me and my auditor over some audit findings and the lady was truly crazy. I felt bad because she shakes I don't know if it is parkinson's or what but she had this shrilly scream and it was unbelievable how she tried to blame us for everything wrong with her world.

Anyway, I was so undone that I couldn't stop laughing with my auditor over how this woman was coming down on us (it was unfounded totally) and I couldn't stop. the more my auditor laughed at me the worse I got. My stomach was hurting!

I'm all extremes I swear with laughing, crying, wanting to die etc. Last night I was so angry and couldn't fall asleep, I woke up in a really bad mood and the day just got out of hand and then the laughing spell...

While laughing my makeup totally filled my eyes and my eyes were burning, I had to grab my makeup remover and practically dump it into both eyes...my auditor and I just laughed the whole time...crazy.

I wish I could say that well at least I was laughing but this type of laughing doesn't seem normal to me. I really had to work hard not to break out laughing in this meeting late today...I almost couldn't control myself and for sure this woman would have kicked us out.

Maybe I'm over analyzing who knows. At least I didn't want to jump from the nearest bridge.